| I am a true courtesan, the type of a person that seams as much ancient as unique... I get reassured in this conclusion when I look around and observe things, and think about what is happening, people and their reactions. I have quite much time for that. Then I understand- I do differ.
I am a courtesan. What does this fact make me, does it make me any different, does my inner world differ? Some people ask me questions about the way I live my life, apart from my obvious interests, all- poetic, artistic, physical, philosophical aspects of erotica.
Yes, probably, the difference is- observation. My dreamy and thoughtful nature needs that kind of time-spending. I find it necessary to have a time for observing things, the World going around. I find it vital for myself to be able to dream and fly in that reality which does exist (don't take me wrong), of course, but it exists a little bit above all the routine. Finally, human being is a "human being" not "human doing". Logic is not necessary what most of people think. The ability to rise above at any time you want or need develops the logic of wisdom, and it's much more advanced. I'd feel time wasted in vain, if I devoted it only to practical things and pragmatic needs. I would not like to throw myself into one and the only way of existing, thinking and feeling. I want to absorb this World, and learn it continuously. I find my lifetime precious. I savour it like a nectar... I wish I had ten lives instead of one, all at the same time. That's what makes me different probably
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